You are a good God. You are a beautiful God. And You are a merciful God. You are compassionate beyond my understanding.
I know this in my mind and even in my heart, but sometimes I don’t “feel” it, sometimes I have trouble living into this Truth.
This busy, distracting world doesn’t reflect Your Glory—Your goodness, Your beauty, Your mercy and compassion. And my life circumstances don’t necessarily help—they cloud my judgment and understanding.
But God! That’s what I tell myself. Is anything too hard for You? You tell me this multiple times in Your Word. One time You say it so plainly … “I am the Lord, the God of all mankind. Is anything too hard for Me?” No! Nothing is too hard for You.
My sight, my horizon is short and narrow; I only see the immediacy of things.
Nothing surprises You; indeed You’ve planned for it and how to work it in a way that is good and glorifying to You.
Do I trust You? Do I believe that You want good for me? Yes, I think the answer is yes. Then why does my heart wander? Why does it get so anxious? Why does it get sad?
I want to control. I want to know. I want assurance. But that’s not faith. That’s trusting in myself, what I know and what I control.
I am to live trusting You—beyond the immediate, beyond what I can be assured of, beyond what I understand.
Sigh … that’s so hard! Maybe that’s why You tell me so many times in Your Word, “be strong and courageous,” “trust in The Lord ,” “The Lord himself goes before you and will be with You.”
I need to keep telling myself these Truths. I need to meditate on them. I need to spend time with You to be refreshed and renewed—in my faith. I need to call or text my believing friends for encouragement and strengthening.
I believe. And I trust You.
When I look back on my life I see Your Hand at work. I see how You made good out of messes. As Your Word says, “not one of Your good promises has failed.”
Today I pray that Your Word be written on my heart. That it’s committed to memory, indelibly etched in my being. May I live all my days strong and courageous, knowing that You are with me and will never leave me.
Whatever life circumstance … may my mind and heart immediately say “but God”.
In the Glorious, Trustworthy and Faithful Name of Jesus I pray.
Amen
