Beautiful God, Faithful Lord, Loving Father, not once have Your promises failed. It may take a really, really, really long time, but You always answer at the exact right moment in time. Your timing is perfect.
Your Word reminds me “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight.”
In the abstract that seems easy to do, but when facing what seems like a mountain or a circumstance that has rattled me so much that I can’t think straight, it’s much harder to put into practice.
You know … l need to give myself some grace! I do eventually get there. It just takes some time. It used to take me weeks or months, but now that window of time has shortened. Holy Spirit, please continue to work in me to shorten that period of disquiet, and strengthen the immediacy of my trust—such that it becomes automatic and absolute.
When I focus on the phrase “my understanding,” it reminds me that Your thoughts are higher than mine, and Your ways are as well. Holy Spirit, please make me aware that there is a huge difference between what I know and understand and what You know and understand. Call to mind when You’ve been there for me … whether as a listening ear, or an answered prayer. You have shown Yourself trustworthy and faithful. And since You NEVER change—You are the same yesterday, today and tomorrow—I can always count on that, despite how impossible it may seem.
This week, I pray to just sit and be with You, even if it’s for 3, 4 or 5 minutes. I want to learn how to more clearly hear You, Your voice and the unique way You to speak to me.
It’s going to be hard to do. I’ll feel compelled to talk, my mind will wander. But You, Holy Spirit can help me come back to that open canvas of a mind. I’m betting that the more I do this, the easier it will become. I’m also betting that during those first few tries I may not hear anything. My ears are not yet tuned to Your whisper, Your soft voice and subtle promptings. But I know that You want me to put myself in Your Holy Presence. And I believe that You will speak to me. I must believe. Why would You answer my prayer if I don’t? You have nothing to prove, but I have everything to gain—to grow in the wonder of being Your child.
In the Always Present and Ever Faithful Name of Jesus I pray.
Amen.
