Most Beautiful God, thank You for loving me. Thank You for forgiving my sins. You are merciful, patient, slow to anger, full of compassion, and filled with unfailing love and faithfulness.
You see me. You see my life circumstances. You know the desires of my heart. You are for me—wanting me to be “filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.”
My resting place is You. You are where I find true peace.
Then why o why do I rebel? Why do I seek to go my own way? Why do I take things into my own hands when You are too slow in answering my prayers?
I think it comes down to this—I want what I want when I want it. And I don’t like discomfort. I want life to feel effortless, to be pleasant, or at least to be way less painful. There is a lot of unrest and uncertainty in and around me.
Unlike You, I’m impatient. Unlike You, I’m not completely faithful. Unlike You, I’m not omniscient, all knowing.
I get discouraged. I doubt. I get scared … what if?
But God! I have to remind myself that You are the God of the Universe, indeed the Creator of all things. You hung the moon, sun and stars. You give me breath and make a way forward. And You want good for me.
In my discouragement, in my doubt, in my fear, I should go to You. Instead of seeking to distract myself or to allow it to consume my thoughts and actions, I should call out to You. You are my Helper, My Lord and my refuge.
You want to hear from me. You want me to come to You with all that’s on my mind and in my heart. I was made for You—to be in relationship with You. It won’t necessarily make everything as I want, but it will certainly bring me more peace.
In the Patient and Loving Name of Jesus I pray.
Amen.
