Many of us could not wait to grow up. We wanted to be able to make the rules and do what we wanted to do when we wanted to do it. Now that we are here, we often look at our lives and wonder “Is this really what being an adult is all about? Why is it so hard? What about what I want? Where is the fairness? Is there ever a break?” ...the questions could go on and on.
I can often define my life and who I am by my roles and responsibilities, and times by how I have failed at my roles and responsibilities. I can get swept into the vicious cycle of making it from point A to point B, tackling everything on the to-do-list, and surviving the daily inconveniences, that I am left at the end of the day feeling exhausted and empty.
I can attend church every Sunday, say a “Now I lay me down to sleep” prayer, follow a few inspirational blogs on Facebook and still feel exhausted and empty. I can beat myself up knowing deep down that I should enjoy the small moments. I should look for daily joys. But, the cycle of being an adult continues…work demands, relationship demands, parenting battles, homeownership problems, caregiver demands, health issues, laundry, meal prep, yard work and the list is neverending. I am left with the same question that I feel guilty about asking… “What about me?” Can anyone relate???
There is an answer to the question “What about me?”. Unfortunately, it is not an answer that the world is beating down our doors to make sure we know. The answer is one that takes some effort on our part. It is one that we have to seek out. The answer is simply knowing who you are.
I had the opportunity several years ago to go on a retreat for some alone time with God. Sometimes that quiet time can be uncomfortable because I want to make sure that my responsibilities are all in order and that I am being successful. I do not want God to be disappointed in me, because disappointing people can be a daily occurence - Why would God be any different? It was in this quiet time that I saw the most beautiful cross. It was composed of many broken pieces - all different shapes, sizes, and colors.
As I gazed at this cross, God reminded me that He knows I am broken and imperfect. He has given me the opportunity for all the roles and responsibilities I have in my life. He is not asking me to have them all perfect. He wants to lead me, spend time with me, love me and be a part of every moment of my life. God wants me to know Him.
If I let the pieces represent my roles and responsibilities, God is saying - give them to me and let me make something beautiful out of them. Did you know that the Word of God says that we are created a masterpiece? Ephesians 2:10 (NLT) says, “For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.”
When I spend time with God, I get to know who I truly am. I find out that I am a masterpiece. I find out that I am a part of a chosen generation (1 Peter 2:9). I find out that I am created in the image of God (Genesis 1:27). I find out that God will never leave me nor forsake me (Hebrews 13:5).
When I learn who I truly am, I am not defined by my roles and responsibilities. The vicious cycle of exhaustion and emptiness does not exist. Instead, I have a true joy and peace, because I am seeing things through God’s eyes and not my own. I know He is in control, and I know I am not. I get to experience this beautiful thing called life. I can walk in the freedom of having my weaknesses and insecurities in the hands of my Heavenly Father. He is glorified through my weakness, and more people can come to know Him.
In Matthew 7:7 (NLT), the Word of God says “‘Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you.” In this crazy thing we call life, we get to experience it with our Heavenly Father. We get to say here is my mess, Lord, make it beautiful.
In this season of Thanksgiving, I am so thankful for my broken pieces. I am thankful for every opportunity I have and I am so glad that I am not responsible for them on my own. As a way of showing our gratitude, let us take Matthew 7:7 to heart. Let us beat down His door desperate to know more and more about Him. And as we learn, may a new desire be ignited deep in us that we are desperate for everyone to know what we do.
God loves you, and He created you a masterpiece. Walk in that truth and be thankful!